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Interest
Evening folks.
Whew...
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557473
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Rankkor
Good part, I liked him. Bad part, he didn't like me.
Did he ran away mid-date screaming like he was in horror movie? If no, then you still have a chance.
No we kissed and stuff but when I got home he texted me saying there's no "emotional connection". So oh well.
awww ='(
Well, at the very least you tried. That's an important step.
Ehm now he's saying it's because he's scared of my destructive past cause he thinks I'll hurt myself and stuff. Really though? Reaaaaaaaally? First one was better.
BOO, what a coward >=( I agree with Boro.
Post by
Interest
Die Hard FB page is awesome.
Looks nice.
Post by
MyTie
kissed and
stuff
My imagination runs wild. Did you kiss, and play tic tac toe? Did you kiss and go to a shoot targets at a gun range? Did you kiss and adopt a dog? Did you kiss and teach each other algebra? I love "stuff"!
Post by
Rankkor
Ok folks, Sincerity Mode here: Wish me all the best, cuz tomorrow I'm gonna need it.
I've kept this somewhat discreet as of late, but here it goes (long post incoming)
I've worked at a bank for quite a while now, yet I've hated that job. Its boring, its uninspiring, and its not something I enjoy. Plus the pay sucks. So, for the past 8 months I've been taking classes at a Chef Academy to pursue my childhood dream of becoming a Chef. I LOOOOOOVE cooking, it relaxes me, and it allows me to put my skills to a use that pleases others (come on, what could possibly cheer you up more than eating a delicious meal?)
About 2 months ago however, I got a business proposal by one of the instructors at the academy. One of her colleagues owns a small restaurant. Nothing fancy, its 3 stars, but they were needing someone to fill the position of kitchen assistant. My teacher recommended me, and so, I took a leap of faith, and quit my job at the bank to pursue my dream of becoming a chef. The plan was simply to work at this restaurant till I graduate from the academy, (in 2 more years) at which point I'd look for a better job at a fancier place like a 5 star international hotel or something. In the meantime, this job would help me pay the bills, and allow me to get some working experience in a kitchen, which is somethnig that is required a lot now a days.
There is a problem though. Not everyone knows this story so here's a small recap: about 10 years ago, there was a street riot that escalated to full blown coup attempt. During this time, me and my family (my mom dad and brother) were out in the streets on a political march. When they threw the national guard at us, and the tear gas started to be pumped out, me and my family got separated. I heard my mom screaming, and when I found her, she was being relentlessly beaten by a national guard. In a rage I attacked this man, nearly killed him, I even think caused permanent brain damage to him, and his partners shot me twice in the leg to subdue me.
This wound never properly healed, because I was quickly tossed into one of the worst hellholes on this world. The Federal Prison of La Sabaneta. A prison so horrifying its been declared one of the top 10 worst prisons in the world. And in this prison, an inmate kicked me in the wound, causing it to never properly heal correctly. As a result of this, I walk with a slight limp, and can't run very well.
The doctors said my leg was out of danger, so I quickly forgot about this, and once released from sabaneta, I slowly rebuilt my life.
However, as it turned out, I underestimated the sort of strain that being standing up for 6 to 7 hours can do to a wounded leg. Working as a Chef leaves very little time to sit down, and because of this, my leg started to hurt. Like hell. But this was my childhood dream, plus I had already quited my previous job, I had to suck it up, and I did. With a ton of painkillers to subdue the pain.
That was a bad idea. The strain on my knee has been so bad, that about 5 days ago I passed out from the pain, my knee is now very swollen and red. I have to go to a doctor tomorrow to examine it.
And here is the meat of the problem: I'm scared sh*tless T_T
No matter what, a bad new is waiting for me.
Due to our crappy economy, EVERYTHING is very expensive over here. So tomorrow, I'm either gonna be told that a big expense is on the way (a bracer for my leg) or an even bigger expense (a surgery for my knee) or even worse: that I have to give up my dream of being a Chef.
Needless to say, neither option is particularly nice. What pisses me off more than anything, is that its been 10 years since I've been released from that hell that was Sabaneta, and its STILL ruining my life. Its like the ghosts of the past refuse me to move on.
So there it is my friends. Thanks for reading this, and wish me luck. Tomorrow I'm really gonna need it.
Post by
MyTie
Ah, socialist's medical care. The painting of perfection.
But seriously, perhaps try this:
Get your education, without being a chef.
Move to a different country.
Become a chef.
Profit.
I hear Italy is a nice place to be a chef.
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Rankkor
Ah, socialist's medical care. The painting of perfection.
But seriously, perhaps try this:
Get your education, without being a chef.
Move to a different country.
Become a chef.
Profit.
I hear Italy is a nice place to be a chef.
hmm bro', the main problem isn't getting the education, its that being a chef requires me to be standing up for several hours, and thanks to my ruined leg, that's just not possible.
Even if I move to a different country, the "you have to be standing up" requirement sticks. Plus I am planning to move out of venezuela, its just harder than it sounds due to all the restrictions in place by the government. I was counting on my chef career to be, maybe, sponsored to work outside, say if I had gotten a job at an international restaurant and proved my worth, but now that possibility is looking more bleak than ever.
Post by
MyTie
Yeah, but another country can probably offer you the medical care needed for you to be able to do the job.
Use your banking experience to get a job/life abroad, then when you are a citizen there, get the medical care you need, and become a chef.
Even if you never become a chef, being in Venezuela seems like being in prison still. Perhaps it's from being an American, with American heritage from several generations, but I feel like I'd climb mountains, traverse deserts, swim rivers, fight anyone, and brave anything, to find my freedom.
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Rankkor
Yeah, but another country can probably offer you the medical care needed for you to be able to do the job.
That's true, but in the meantime, I'll be wasting precious years not advancing my career. I'm not getting any younger, and as the goblins say: Time is Money.
My mom offered me some consolation with this perspective: I could become a Chef Instructor at any of the Chef academies in venezuela, and once I move out, get the proper medical treatment so I can be a full Chef.
Use your banking experience to get a job/life abroad
I was just a simple accountant in a low-pay position on a crappy bank. That doesn't really opens any doors out there. Working at some sort of international career does, such as the fashion industry, television, modeling, and on my case, cooking.
Even if you never become a chef, being in Venezuela seems like being in prison still.
It didn't used to be T_T There was a time where this place was amazing.
I'm a patriot, I love my country, my culture, my heritage, and its why its so devastating to see venezuela, once the Jewel of the Caribbean become nothing more than a wretched hive of scum and villainy. Filled with corruption at the economic, social, political, and structural level to the point you'd be hard pressed to find anything here that isn't solved or bypassed with money.
Perhaps it's from being an American, with American heritage from several generations, but I feel like I'd climb mountains, traverse deserts, swim rivers, fight anyone, and brave anything, to find my freedom.
I agree, and that's why I am working very hard to earn my freedom, not just for me but for my wife and child. However, there is a proper way to do these things, and an improper way to do it.
I could just go the illegal way, hire a coyote to smuggle us out of the country, and enter America as Illegal aliens. And what would I accomplish with that? living like second class citizens, hiding from authority, having to look over my shoulder for immigration, and living with the fear of deportation hanging over my head like the proverbial Damocles Sword.
Or I could do it the legal way, get my visa, passport, get those for my family, save enough money, exchange that money to an international currency (which anywhere else, its easy and fast, over here is slow, and borderline impossible) move out, do the CRAPLOAD of paperwork to get proper citizenships, and live as naturalized citizens who have nothing to hide.
If I'm gonna do something I'm gonna do it right, I've been saving money and very slowly changing it to dollars for years, but even on the most optimistic scenario, I'm not gonna be out of here for at least another 6 years. Its too much redtape, and too much paperwork and too much stuff that has to happen. The government made it that way cuz in 2004 people were emigrating from here en masse, a full exodus, and chavez realized he'd be ruling an empty kingdom if he didn't closed the lid. So he closed it. And now, leaving here LEGALLY, is ridiculously hard.
Post by
gamerunknown
Well, best of luck with the news you get tomorrow. I'm sure you'd make a fantastic chef. Maybe the stars will align for you and it'll be a simple procedure with your knee that fixes everything...
Sorry the date didn't work out Elura. I'm sure it feels devastating, but it'd probably be worse for you if he wanted to exploit or take advantage of your past.
Ed: Oh, on a brighter note, the voice reel was really funny Moreco. I liked the robot computer guy :p.
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557473
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Interest
I think my sanity is slowly dripping away.
Oh wait. It's already gone. Looks like my cup runneth over, so to speak.
Post by
Rystrave
Lots of bad news in the RB this morning. Best o' luck, Ranky. And im sorry your date didn't turn out the way you had hoped, Elura.
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Interest
Lots of bad news in the RB this morning. Best o' luck, Ranky. And im sorry your date didn't turn out the way you had hoped, Elura.
I guess that's why I feel abnormally strange today.
Why do I feel so distant suddenly.
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240140
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Rankkor
Well, back from the doc's office.
I received bad news as I imagined, but a hope spot in there. (On a side note, why can't doctors speak bloody common language? I didn't do 12 years of medicine, I can't understand their medical jargon :S here's what I could piece together from what little spanish he actually spoke)
here it goes:
By neglecting to take care of my knee, and drowning the pain with painkillers I only made the problem worse. I need surgery, NOW. A brace can hold my leg together for the time being, but its just a bandaid solution, a patch to hold things in place while I get everything ready.
That majorly sucks. I need to take 2 weeks off, to let the swelling subside, and allow the soft tissue to regenerate itself. Apparently the doctors who treated my leg 10 years ago did a piss poor job, they only removed the bullets, stitched the wound, and then threw me into Sabaneta without properly wrapping my knee in an orthopedic cast, to allow the cartilage and soft tissue to regen properly.
Since they didn't do that (nor warned me of what would happen) when that inmate kicked my wound, it caused the bones to deviate, and made them regenerate in a skewed way, such that when I'm standing up, this pointy piece of bone punctures my inner muscles.
Or something like that. That bone has to be chipped down (or was it filed down? I'm not sure how to say the medical term in english, as it stands I had to look up half of what he said on the Internet to have any clue of what he was talking about) and then be allowed to grow into its natural form on its own, while wrapped up in a cast.
At least that's as best as I can explain it. I'll also need a knee orthosis (yeah, word is so rare not even Opera recognizes it as a word.) to help my ligaments realign themselves,relieve pressure from the part of the knee joint that is damaged, and stabilize my knee, however the doc was adamant that the brace alone WILL NOT SUFFICE to treat a wound that never healed properly.
Its just a component of the treatment that will have to be accompanied by drugs, surgery, and later on, physical therapy. He said I was lucky to be even able to walk. Needless to say my wife scolded me badly for being so reckless (I never told her or anyone else anything, I just sucked it up, and endured my pain quietly, and now I'm paying for it).
The slight ray of hope is that at least the brace will not cost me much, because while they ARE expensive on this country, the government has this program that helps to provide people with orthopedics needed if they can't afford them, such as wheelchairs, or in my case Braces. They said that the payment plan is very generous, and the fee is small enough to be affordable to just about anyone. So at least that's one concern out of my head.
However, now I have to, somehow, scrape together enough money to pay for the surgery, to pay for the drugs, and to pay for the physical therapy. What's worse, I'm very new at this job on the restaurant, I dunno if they'll just fire me altogether for being unfit for work anymore, or allow me to recover while still paying me.
Dark times are in the horizon my friends, dark times indeed U_U
I need a god-damned drink.
NOW.
I could also use a hug T_T
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Rystrave
Still gettin me sum though.
That's all that matter ;)
/hugs Rank :(
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